Journaling

Everyday when I access my week, I think that next week will be more relaxing and less crazy then this week will be. Why do I keep doing that to myself? I think every week is just going to be crazy from here on out for the rest of my life. Dang it...

Tonight I went out with some girlfriends to celebrate my bday. It was a lot of fun. We went to Kneaders (hello-FREE dessert on your bday!) and then went shopping. And then again out for more dessert! Why don't I do stuff like that more often?? Last week Melissa told me to call up my closest girl friends and tell them we were going out. Best idea EVER! I honestly believe that I have some of the most amazing friends. These girls always have my back and are so loyal and kind.  I truly believe that guys need a boys night and girls need a ladies nights. Sometimes it helps me realize how much I LOVE my little boy. How can you learn to miss someone if you are never gone? Missing someone is a good emotion because your love grows and you learn to appreciate them more. I love the feeling of when I have been gone for a while and think, "Yeah, I get to go home and see my baby-I just miss him." When I arrive home and he sees that it is me, the SWEETEST smile spreads on his cute little face and he comes walking as fast as those tiny little feet will allow. It is the best feeling in the world and melts my heart as he runs into my arms. I know that boy loves and needs ME. What better feeling is there then that?

On the way home, Jeanie and I were talking about church stuff and answers that come so strongly and such. I remembered a quote that our Young Women's President quietly passed to me during Sunday School the other day. It was so perfect for me because a lot of times I don't have confidence in the answers I receive. This quote was so perfect for me that I had to write it down. Tonight as we were talking, I was trying to tell Jeanie about the quote, but couldn't exactly remember it, so Jeanie-here it is!!! =D

"What do you do when you have prepared carefully, have prayed fervently, waited a reasonable time for a response and still do not feel an answer? You may want to express thanks when that occurs, for it is an evidence of His trust. When you are living worthily and your choice is consistent with the Savior's teachings and you need to act, proceed with with trust. As you are sensitive to the promptings of the spirit, one of two things will certainly occur at the appropriate time: either the stupor of thought will come, indicating an improper choice, or the peace or the burning in the bosom will be felt comforting you that your choice was correct. When you are living righteously and are acting with trust, God will not let you proceed too far without a warning impression if you have made the wrong decision."

I have no idea who said this, but I LOVE it. I think Lorri was inspired to give this to me. It's just what I need to hear. I think sometimes when the Lord has a plan for us, things just fall into place in our lives. Or they fall our of our lives. Sometimes we are expected to study, search and ponder over the answer. This can be so hard as our desires may not be what is best for us or according to His plan. In Sunday School we talked about how we have righteous desires that are not happening in our lives and when we pray and it just doesn't happen, how hard that can be. Someone said this is the refiners period. Sometimes the answers to our prayers happen right away and that is a testimony builder. Other times, we have to WAIT. The one lesson I learned with the miracle of Lincoln is that the Lord has a closer eye on us then we realize. He has a time and a reason for everything. But Lincoln was meant to come when he did. Too many things just fell right into place along the way for me to believe other wise. Looking back, I DO BELIEVE all those trials were part of His plan. It all works out in the end and Lincoln is SOOO very much worth the wait!

Anyways, that's my ramblings for tonight. It's been a long day. I am exhausted and have a darling baby to go snuggle and kiss!